my current pregnancy status

Kya is still doin really well, even though we lost Kyra to Twin to Twin Diffusion. We are doing all we can to keep her full term. I am on lots of things. from, abien to help with sleep && blood pressure to magnesuim IV's to make sure I do NOT contract.

So, i have had lots of shots, blood work, && two surgeries since ive been here. i had a Cerplage which is a stitch placed into my cervix. Then i had 4 LITERS of amniotic fluid drained out of my stomach. Durin the operation, which was my first EVER, my water broke. thats why im leakin amniotic fluid. thats ALSO why im on bed rest. but anyways. Kya is healthy, if she can wait to be bron till later she will be fine. but if she is born now, she will have either lots of defects er not make it past the delievery table. um, theres not much else to sya really. im on Ambian, Indocen, delcolax, magnesium, oxygen at night, electrolytes through an IV, tributaline, somethin fer high blood pressure, hooked up to heart rate monitors, blood pressure monitors, baby monitors to monitor Kyas heartrate, then i have this thin on my finger measurin the oxygen in my blood. thats why im on oxygen @@ night...i have slight sleep apnea. lol anyways. i know this is long. but i only get on my computer once in a while since im in Triage sooo. Also, i had two shots, one in each hip that was a steroid fer Kya to help with the growth of her lungs, heart, and other vital organs. Im sure theres a bunch of stuff i am missin, but with as little time as i have on the computer i think i got it good enough. if you have any further comments er little questions feel free to comment me && the next time i get on here, i will respond to you as soon as i can!

thanks to all who are supportin me!

-Erica

-Erica

Its Your Love

Life is great! Things couldn't be better! I am really close with all my friends, have THE best boyfriend ever, and I am expecting twin girls! I am so excited to see them! They are a part of the best of my life! Kya Bree & Krya Marie. I am so ready to see what they look like! I want to know their hair color, how tall they are, how BIG they are! Everything about them that there is to know! MY boyfriend, Todd, is the greatest. He makes me so happy. He is always there for me and does not judge me. He accepts me for who I am, no questions asked. I trust him with everything I am. He's also a great kisser!!! Haha My friends...where to begin. Some of them have always been there, and some really great new ones have come along. All in all, the love I get from all of them, is AMAZING. I wouldn't be as happy or as fortunate as I am, without all those important people in my life. My friends are always there, always giving advice; even if they think I'll get mad at them for it! Haha

total happiness

They say ignorance is bliss; But really, how is that so? Because if you don't know how much happier something can make you, if you don't have it or know of it? If you never take the leap, how do you know how it'll turn out? I think, they say that to make themselves feel better about not taking the chance on something. About not taking an oppurtunity that hey may never get again. I try to take all the chances I can. To get out of life everything I can. This way, at least if I take the risk, I can't ever look back and regret NOT taking the chance. This way I will know how things turn out, not sit there looking back and wonder how life might've been different if only I had done this one thing. If only I had done it this way...

well

since i can remeber. i always thought of havin the fairy tale life come true. what little girl doesnt? but when you get older, Cinderella becomes a more sensible woman like Condelisa Rice er, Mrs. Clinton. who know how the real world works, not what they dream of. i cannot believe that i have fallen in love though. its almost, surreal. hes someone i trust. hes my best friend first && foremost. theres just sometimes. where i think. am i being dumb? er is this really it? thats what i mean by surreal. things are so good. its scary. then again. theres like. those few little things that just. i cannot seem to conquer no matter how hard i try. idk, am i being dumb? er have i really && truly fallen?

Six Year Memorial For September 11th

Wow. It’s been six years since that tragic scene, September 11th. Can you believe it? I can still see that image so vividly of the Twin Towers just trembling away…I was sitting in my 7th grade homeroom class, Mrs. Madsen’s Home Economics class. She had brought in her own miniature television. We all agreed to watch it, as long as we kept quiet! We weren’t allowed to see it. The school system said it was too vivid for us. Well, we wanted to see what was going on in our own country!!! So we watched, as the planes came, as the buildings easily toppled down. I was only 14, but it hit so hard. I began to tear up in class. We had the three close by classrooms in our room. We were all smashed together like vacuum packed sardines. But, that didn’t matter. What mattered is we were helpless to do anything about the sights we were watching. That we had no way of knowing what our future now held because we had no idea how bad this was going to affect us. That we had no way of knowing if they were going to be ok, of knowing if it was all going to be ok, knowing if we could withstand such a heartless, cowardly blow to the American Economy. The Twin Towers were such a massive part of America’s daily life! The people that worked in the Twin Towers had loved at home or at school, had friends as coworkers also, had friends in other places, had kids at home, a husband, a wife, a pet, a LIFE. These people will always be remembered. For going to work even though there may be a bomb or an attack everyday. They had the guts, the gumption to keep going no matter how much other people wanted to see them crumble. 9-11-01 has affected us all. In ninth grade I went on a trip for my high school band. We got to see Ground Zero. I stuffed my hand through the barricades and touched the rubble. Its almost unbelievable to think that something that has been so permanent is gone so quickly. Wow. If you have never seen it, you don’t have any idea how more of a patriotic person it makes you. When you saw the Twin Towers, you saw a reflection of the shore, the town, and the city. Now when you look that way, you just see rubble, ash, decay, molten glass, broken spirits. I never used to be into Government or who was President at the time. But the day I saw the Twin Towers fall, and the day I saw Ground Zero. That all changed. After witnessing these things, how could you NOT be a patriotic American? I now care about all those things. I take part in politics as much as I can. I keep really current on current events, I know who’s president, for how long, could they get re-elected? I pay attention to MY country now. I have realized that if I want to be happy with it I have to take part. Not just sit there and hope someone has the same ideas then complain when I don’t agree. This is where I live, where I breathe, where I work, where I am where I'll be when I die. I think this trying event has proven us all to be strong, compassionate, warm, loving, brave, heroic, beautiful, supporting people. Here’s to all the victims and heroes of 9-11.

America the brave.

Cancer

This is my own little vent station. I use this to let out things in my emotions. The beasts of my admiries. I don't put the actual events, just something that equally angers me or I put it into a different story. I am fixing to re write the lyrics to a My Chemical Romance song in here call "Cancer." It is a great song that just goes to show how show or demanding life can be. That no matter how bad things get, there is always someone there, that something can always get worse, or that there is always hope for one last ride. This rock band, My Chemical Romance... I got to see them live. It was one of the greatest times of my life. It will remain with me forever. I will never forget the experience of the show, the music, or meeting the Band Member Frankie. Anyhow, Frankie was so nice, I just cannot imagine how much of a great person he really is. I only got to talk to him for a few minutes as their "The Long Black Parade Tour" tour was still in motion, but those few minutes, that little piece of time we shared. It shows you that even if you don't know someone to give them the chance to shine. They might just be brighter than the sun, you never know.
But, here are the lyrics to "Cancer" by My Checmical Romance of off their 'The Long Black Parade' CD Album.

"Turn away, If ya could get me a drink of water cause my lips are chapped and faded, call my admiry. Help me gather all my things and bury me in all my favorite colors, my sisters and my brothers still. I will not catch you, cause the hardest part of this is leavin you.
Now turn away, cause I'm awful just to see. Cause all my hair's abandoned all my body. All my agony, know that I will never marry. Baby I'm just soggy from the chemo, countin down the days to go. It just ain't livin, and I hope you know that if you say goodbye today, I'd ask you to be true, cause the hardest part of this is leavin you. Cause the hardest part of this is leavin you."
Enjoy the lyrics? The actual song is even better. The WHOLE ALBUM is great!

Foreign Fights Verse 2

Bush has single handedly created many different dilemmas. What He doesn’t understand is this. Those people were LIVING that way, that’s the only way they know! What if they had wanted a different type of government such as a dictator, like a King or Queen? They might not have wanted a democracy if they had known what everything is. Bush has pushed His issues onto them, HIS thoughts onto them. Which, just goes to prove He’s two faced! I mean, He pushes this democracy on them, but then doesn’t let them choose their own thoughts? Gives them His thoughts for their own? What is that? That is not a fair, observant leader. President Bush needs to step back, leave the liquid assets at home, and look at what He’s done. To see the damage He has started avalanching in His mess of term. I do not understand how people so willingly back a man that has done all this. Even in His first serve of term; I didn’t like Him a bit. He left a foul taste in my mouth, a bitter thought in my mind when I heard of Him, or talked of Him. I cannot fathom the kind of heartless, cruel people that have helped Bush to where He is. Can you NOT see the death He is bringing upon the American name? You have got to be joking if you say no!!!!

Foreign Fight

So. We [United States] have basically taken over the Iraqi country, and re-fed it through the American lifestyle. Bush has literally started an America Jr. across seas. He has ran down their government, forcibly re-instated a democratic instution that He hand set-up, killed innocent civilians, and used their oil fields for his own personal profits, among other inhumane things. I am a strong believer in karma, what goes around comes around, but I also believe in fair judgement, honorable revenge. Not sadistic, power, greed led attacks on lesser advanced countries than ourselves. I think it's only fair that we give Bush a taste of his own medicince. He needs to know how it feels to be raised one way then have some foreign fight enter their home and tell them that they are all wrong, that His way is the right way. Bush had great potential as a leader. But as so many do in that high of a postion, let it get the best of them. Just like liqour, it can turn even the most respectable men into complete vultures. Same goes with greed, it can turn polotically sound men into viscous, spiteful, greedy leaders. That in turn means loss of attention for the important factors such as the American people, causing chaos in society.